ryker

ok. so as u know i am like TOTALLY in luv with ryker. i try to get near him as much as possible, i flirt with him constantly (i guess. i dont know everyone tells me i do. so ya) and i always stare at him during class. i cant help but look into his gorgeous eyes. everytime i look at him, itz like i dont stop at just his face. itz like i look way down deep into his heart. i guess cuz thts where i want to be. right next to him. i know this is like a whole new episode of justin, but ryker isnt a player. as much as i wanted to deny it, i knew just was a player alll a long. but i know ryker isnt a player. sure he might seem a little heartless and may seem like a jerk, but once u get to now him, u realize that he really does care. he is just still stuck in that little kid mode. remember when u used to make fun of other kids cuz u liked em? i do. well he is still like that. except he doesnt always do it becuz he likes someone. sometime he does it for pure pleasure. but thats not most of the time. like one time i was laying on the grass and there was a little hill, and he actually grabbed my foot and started pulling me down! i was so shockedi almost screamed! but i started laughing...... i was so confuzzled of what i just did. i wanted to scream, yet i was laughing? it made no sense. that when i got a little scared. cuz i realized how much i really do love him.no matter what other people say about him, now matter how they jusge him, i will always look at him like my night in shining armor. the one that i want so badly to tell i like em, but i'm scared he wont like me back. hmmm. well right now we are becoming friends at least. cuz he cant date till he is 16 (blah!) so i have to wait like 4 more years till i can get a hold of him. or get a chance of getting a hold of him i should say. i want to be the one he thinks about when he is sad and i make him happpy. i want to be that one that he cant stand to be without. i want to be the one... that gets to hold him in my arms and tell him "i luv him".....